Till’ Kingdom Come
I have felt lost and I didn’t dare try and find myself because when I was lost I didn’t wanna be found..that being lost was almost like opening up again and letting this blue world know who I was. I didn’t want that, I didn’t want to become a used up doll and thrown away every single time so I did the next best thing and continued to push away and I have succeed every single time.
This world has became a vile place that its hard to find the right person to actually feel safe with and trust and not feel like it was a waste of time. Its one of those ‘one and hundred’ situations where your not sure which one is the ‘one’. I just push them away and hope if they are the ‘one’ there is a chance they will come back to me..soo I wait.
Am I wrong to do this? perhaps I will regret it but its called living and this is how I live, its certainly better then using and cheating.
So I guess I will continue to push everyone away until that ‘one’ ends up coming back, until then I’ll wait..till’ kingdom come.
