An New Finish (The End)
So here we are, at the end of it all. I started this blog on December 26th, 2008 way before tumblr was cool. My first blog posted was about me hiding behind a mask and seeing scars, little did I know I would soon reveal my face, my true identity and sorta embrace it.
I once wrote a blog post on March 1st, 2010 called ‘Rewind, Review & Recycle’, explaining why I started this blog, what purpose I was getting out of it. The truth is; I had many ideas in mind for this blog. I was gonna use it as a persona and exaggerate everything I wrote but I realized I needed to get things off my chest as well. At the time I didn’t really have any friends to open up to, so this was my very own therapist who sat in silence. At times it helped relieve some stress and sometimes it didn’t do much help but I still was at it blogging away with less then 100 followers and readers I assume.
I recently decided to end this blog because I said what needed to be said, I have nothing else to confess, and maybe if ever something comes to mind, I will use this again.
I have learned quite a lot about myself and I hope you have too. I tried to be honest but cryptic at the same time. I tried to be funny but serious at the same time. Some part of me feels not many people read this blog but I guess at the end of the day it was never about showcasing my mere abilities to write, it was about sorting through my brain, picking out memories and putting them in the correct box.
Of course I had the off grammar mistakes, bad short stories, meaningful and meaningless rants about other woman.. The infamous woman. While we are on that topic, I can safely now say, most of those rants where NOT about any one specific, and if there was a post about you, you now know it.
You are probably wondering ‘What now? How are you gonna deal with your thoughts cramming up your brain?’ Well I have created another blog under a false alter ego name and if you have a tumblr I may very well be following you now. I also will start focusing my writing abilities on novels and essays. And you can always find me here as well.
The end of it all, as they say, sometimes can be bless-full, rewarding or saddening. There was Oprah, Smallville, Larry King and Friday Night Lights to name a few, that came to an end. What I am saying is that everything comes to an end, whether its a tv show or a movie or a book series or even a life.. Everything ends.
I hope in the span of 2 and half years I was able to inspire, excite, disappoint, upset, and make someone smile and if I didn’t do that, I know I didn’t fail because I also helped myself in the mean time. This blog will always be up, if ever you need a good read about a mystery girl or a half vampire half wolf, or cryptic language… This blog will never ever die, even if when or if I do.
I guess last year this time I didn’t think I would be ending my blog, but you never know what happens in life. Life takes you to big place, you meet new people, its a crazy thing. I thought I would be getting into that college this year, turns out they denied me for no reason.. But life hands you surprises so you don’t get bored with living, its the joys of it. Whether you get turned down by your high school sweet heart too many times or you didn’t get the job you wished for; don’t ever give up on your dreams, dont go for second best, its your life! You were not born to have a boring experience, you were born to live your life how you feel you want to live it. To find happiness in the cracks and corners of this world. Dont turn back and run the other way, run straight for your goal, your dream and your love, always always.
With that said, I have nothing more to say on this blog. I suppose its time to turn out the light, lock the door, and store this part of my life away for now. I will miss writing in my own personal scars and sex stories journal and knowing that someone was reading it, my thoughts, I enjoyed that thought. So this is not good bye, but see you later. It may be the end of this blog but not the end of everything, not just yet because as Frank Sinatra said ‘The best is yet to come’ and if the best hasn’t come into your life just yet then its far from over. Its far from over. Its not the end. Its just beginning.
